• Find Joy,  Mental Health

    Recognizing Depression and Anxiety in my Extroverted Self

    I had in my head an outline for how I wanted to tell my story. Nice and linear, each installment with its own lesson or insight. HA! Anyone who writes can probably tell you that’s not how story telling usually goes. So instead of trying to force my story into non-existent structure, I’m telling you the part that I feel is important at this moment. This summer I visited my hometown and took some time to look through my yearbooks and scrapbooks. These were full of my achievements. But there is something missing from them, something that is not visible and I was not even aware of. High School I…

  • Daily Routine,  Mental Health,  Self Care

    Celebrate Small Victories

    Big things don’t happen everyday. A new job, a promotion, a baby, a marathon are once in awhile things for most people. But there is something to celebrate everyday, we just have to look for them. You might think “well that sounds positive and cheery Chrissy.” And it is, because I believe we should totally pat ourselves on the back. “But I haven’t done anything special in a long time.” I bet you have. On social media we often talk about the small things we do everyday under the guise of what some people call Adulting. Paying those bills, washing the clothes, or doing the dishes are all things worth…

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    Mental Health,  Migraine,  Self Care

    Going Home with Love and Anxiety

    For the next week I will be visiting Northeastern Pennsylvania, where both Ryan and I call home, and handling my anxiety the best I can. Yesterday we loaded the truck with Christmas presents and the cat and headed east. It was an easy trip where Popeye and I slept most of the journey. We have been planning the trip for awhile so over the last few weeks I have been preparing myself both for the travel and being away from our apartment for a week. Both cause a lot of anxiety for me. Love I love going “home.” I grew up in beautiful rural Pennsylvania, along the Susquehanna River. Ryan…

  • Daily Routine,  Mental Health,  Self Care

    Resilience- 2018 Word of the Year

    Back in January I posted this to my other blog thepinkwoobie.com as a rallying cry for 2018. As the year has progressed resilience has been my mantra. I wanted to post it here, as a reminder of why it’s important to be resilient. I admit that on this particular day I am not feeling that resilient, or positive, or any of the things I talk about in this post, but that’s all the more reason to post this, I will get there again. Resilience– (1) The capacity to recover quickly from difficulties; toughness. I have to admit that I never feel particularly resilient, but when one looks at it’s antonyms…

  • Daily Routine,  Mental Health

    Time is Flying- Small Life Update

    I can’t believe how fast time is flying lately. I’m kind of shocked it’s July. And not just the beginning of July. Saturday was Ryan’s birthday and I’ve always equated that with a sort of mid summer celebration. Therapy I have been attending therapy regularly for over a year now. I’ve accomplished a lot, but for me it is work that will never be done. Some weeks I feel well, my depression is cooperative, my anxiety is light, and my health is stable. Other weeks I am down in the dumps, or anxious over an everyday task, and when the pain flares who knows where my head is going to…