• Daily Routine,  Reproductive Choices,  Self Care

    Big and Small Decisions with Chronic Illness

    Decisions get made every day. Big life altering decisions are often considered over long periods of time, while smaller decisions may be made impulsively. Over the years I’ve made decisions that were not so great, like getting bangs in college. I’ve also made some amazingly awesome decisions, marrying Ryan is probably the smartest thing I’ve ever done. I’ve always considered myself a person who makes her choices and sticks with it. I’m always certain about my food order before our order is taken. I cruise through multiple choice tests, either confident I know the answers, or admitting I’m clueless and just guessing. However, recently I was worried about a decision…

  • Find Joy,  Mental Health

    Recognizing Depression and Anxiety in my Extroverted Self

    I had in my head an outline for how I wanted to tell my story. Nice and linear, each installment with its own lesson or insight. HA! Anyone who writes can probably tell you that’s not how story telling usually goes. So instead of trying to force my story into non-existent structure, I’m telling you the part that I feel is important at this moment. This summer I visited my hometown and took some time to look through my yearbooks and scrapbooks. These were full of my achievements. But there is something missing from them, something that is not visible and I was not even aware of. High School I…

  • Daily Routine

    New Symptom Anxiety: Think Before You Google

    I’ve lived a lifetime of stomach ailments, with a variety of symptoms. I’ve sat in waiting rooms with my mom as a preteen for diagnostic testing. I learned to adjust my meals to temper my pain and nausea as I got older. As an adult much of my issues came from stress, and the ibuprofen I was constantly taking for my chronic pain. I’ve run the gamut of of upper and lower digestion issues. I share a lot here about my health, but I don’t think it’s necessary to describe exactly what I mean. New Symptoms When it comes to new symptoms our first instinct is to reach for the…

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    Mental Health,  Migraine,  Self Care

    Going Home with Love and Anxiety

    For the next week I will be visiting Northeastern Pennsylvania, where both Ryan and I call home, and handling my anxiety the best I can. Yesterday we loaded the truck with Christmas presents and the cat and headed east. It was an easy trip where Popeye and I slept most of the journey. We have been planning the trip for awhile so over the last few weeks I have been preparing myself both for the travel and being away from our apartment for a week. Both cause a lot of anxiety for me. Love I love going “home.” I grew up in beautiful rural Pennsylvania, along the Susquehanna River. Ryan…